I posted a few days ago that I was starting to wonder if it was worth conintuing to write this blog. Mainly this was do to my lack of followers and people who comment. I totally realize that this blog is for me and if people read it and comment on it great. If there are not a ton of followers or coments made so be it. I got a few comments from people saying that they to don't always get coments or have the biggest following, but they write for them. I need to remember this. Also, people have reminded me that just because people don't comment of follow, doesn't mean that they don't read your blog. The funny thing is, after I wrote that post and got some of those comments, a friend mentioned that she reads my blog often. She has never commented, but she reads my blog!
I think part of these insecurities come from never really having a ton of friends. I have always had a couple of very close friends and a bunch of aquaintences, but never a huge friend base. I guess, I thought that maybe as an adult things would change. I thought, maybe I'd be more likely to open myself up and be more friendly than she and quiet. I thought having kids would make things easier. Unfortunately, none of these are true. I have met some great people/aquaintences between grad school, work, and being a mom, I just haven't really made the friends that I thought I would. There are a lot of these people that I would consider a friend, but unfortunately I don't think that the feelings are mutual. I know having 3 little ones so close in age may be making things a little more difficult. I know that my shyness tends to be a major limiting factor. I know that people's busy schedules play a huge role. But, I also know that there are plenty of people in my situation that have made friends, close friends, not just aquaintences. Maybe as I get more comfortable in my own skin and I open up and become a little more extroverted, maybe then I'll be able to make soem close friendships and not just have aquaintences!