I have never been the most confident person, but since having kids and trying to make new friend, my self-confidence has really taken a dive. I'm not even sure I want to write about this here, but I'm not sure anyone reads my blog often enough to make a difference, which may be a good thing. I can write a little about how I am feeling and get it out without worrying that anyone is judging.
I have done a couple of play dates, but they never seem to last more than one time. I am hoping that I am not doing anything to offend people. For the life of me, I can't figure out why I can't seem to maintain friendships with other people who have kids. I know that it is difficult, but it really makes me wonder if there is anything that I need to either change about me or my kids or maybe how I react to my kids. The thing that kills me is when things like yesterday happen. I had a friend from high school over and we were talking about friendships and how much more difficult it is once you have kids. This friend, who I had kind of lost touch with over the years, was very complimentary about my friendship with her. So does that mean it's not me, it's just that I don't have things in common with the people I have met so far? Am I not friendly enough? Maybe it will happen just later, not right now. But I have to say, my self confidence has totally taken a dive and the insecurities that I thought I had moved beyond are starting to surface and really make me question myself!
Oh well! I guess I just have to continue to try to be friendly and hope that I can meet people that want to be friends with me and my kids. Maybe I just need to find people I have more in common with!